Day 3 – Sore

Day 3 did not start off well, I am so sore today that I did not make it to the gym. I did get out and walk the neighborhood trying to stretch out a little and had a good breakfast. I remember Thomas always telling me to get a good breakfast in. Will be back to the gym tomorrow and will post workout after that.

Day 2 – I made it! (and it begins)

So I made it into the Gym today with my man Coty. I am going to need all the support I can get over the next couple of weeks to be able to get back into the rhythm of working out everyday. Not much  to say today, besides that I am already sore from today’s workout. I will have more over the days. I am still trying to decide if I should put my weight on here or not (don’t want people to look at me differently). A couple of thoughts below for you:

  • I gained more weight back then I thought I did over the 1 1/2 year off, but still have a net loss so that is good I guess.
  • I use to enjoy working out and hope I can get back to enjoying it again.
  • It is weird going back to the gym, a place where I felt at home for so many months.

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WOD 7-15-2014

10 minute Treadmill Warm-up

15x Leg Press – 230 lbs
15x Dumbbell Bench – 65 lbs
15x LAT Pull-down – 90 lbs

15x Leg Press – 280 lbs
15x Dumbbell Bench – 75 lbs
15x LAT Pull-down – 97.5 lbs

15x Leg Press – 280 lbs
15x Dumbbell Bench – 75 lbs
15x LAT Pull-down – 97.5 lbs

10x each Leg Lunges
12x Dumbbell Shoulder Press – 20 lbs
12x Seated Row – 90 lbs

10x each Leg Lunges
12x Dumbbell Shoulder Press – 25 lbs
12x Seated Row – 97.5 lbs

10x each Leg Lunges
12x  Dumbbell Shoulder Press – 25 lbs
12x Seated Row – 105 lbs

10 minute Treadmill Cool down

Day 1 back and it did not start off so great

Well, today was suppose to be Day 1 back at the gym full time to really get back and focused on losing the weight and being happy again.  That did not go so well when the alarm went off at 6:15 am. I hate myself for hitting the snooze button and just laying in bed listening to the Howard Stern Show.  I would like to blame me not going in on the H.S. Show, but they replay the show all day long so I can get it later in the day.

I left myself down, and I left my boys Thomas, and Coty down.  That is another reason I need to get back to the gym so I can see my friends more.

Day 2 has to be better.


“Sooner or later, those who win are those who think they can. ”
-Richard Bach

“Suffer the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret!”
– Lance Armstrong

It’s a nice day for a White Fence

I never expected anyone to take care of me, but in my wildest dreams and juvenile yearnings, I wanted the house with the picket fence from June Allyson movies. I knew that was yearning like one yearns to fly.
~Maya Angelou

I got my very own white fence yesterday, it really is just a garden fence to hold up some flowers but who is really counting. Over the past week I have done a lot of life reflection and this is what I came up with.

  • The house with a picket fence and house is a joke for most people. It is a struggle to survive everyday, some are just way better them most to cope with this.
  • Why are more people depressed (me included) then ever before in the world? Maybe everyone always was depressed but no one talked about it. Maybe it is the food we eat that changed are hormones. Maybe we are all big babies.
  • Why can’t I let go of the past? Is it because the past seemed so much better.

Letting go of the past for me is one of the thee most difficult things I face everyday.  When I feel like I am moving on something bring me right back to that place.  For example I cleaned my office out and came across a photo album I forgot I even had and did not know what was in it.

I came across pictures of my ex and myself. Now I have been single for 10 years now and maybe that is why it is hard to get over the past, but as soon as I saw this one picture it took me back like it was just a week ago. I remembered the love I had for her (even though she never believed me). I remembered proposing to her, the kisses, and even the make out sections. I even remembered the sneaking into her house to sleep with her (really just sleeping). God I miss her so much I thought and then I start to cry. How much I want that again, how much I want to have someone to spend my life with. How much I wanted to have the white fence and house with her.

I know I can still find some else, it can still happen I am only 30 right?! I am to picky in what I am looking for, does my depression hold me back, how about fear? What ever it is I need to let go and be happy and let go of the past. The White Fence and house can still happen for me and it begins today!